A couple of weeks ago after the lunar eclipse, I went to sleep with the shades wide open so that I could “moon-bathe” in the full moon, as a friend had suggested earlier that day. My dreams during the night were remarkable, but what woke me in the morning was an inner illumination that I had been eclipsing the fullness of my own light over the last few years with imagined, even remembered, fears about how I would be received. I had always been a heretic of sorts, exploring non-traditional perspectives on the human and the Divine, meaning and matter, life, love and truth and all things seen and unseen – and my perspectives and passions for these things were not always comfortable for others.
As I came fully awake into the clarity of that thought, suddenly a voice from somewhere within asked me a startling question: “Would you be a fool for God?” As I lay there stunned, the question was repeated. And then a third time, more softly and intimately, “Would you dare to be a fool for me?”
The question pierced my heart, and as an aching emotion welled up in me I understood that what I was really being asked was “will you dare to be yourself for God, for the Divine, for the inner other dwelling inside you?” The voice continued, “I cannot experience who I am through you, as you, and especially for you, unless you are willing to be you.”
In keeping with the moon-tides and the effects of truth on a hiding heart, that transformative day took me through a flood of emotions as I began opening to the more of myself that was longing to take its full place in my life.
Sometimes we are afraid to take on our own uniqueness because we fear aloneness, that being who we truly are will take us away from a place of belonging in our family, work and social circles. And yet, so many of us spend our lives yearning to know who we are and what our purpose is for being here. Thus we are drawn to self-discovery systems that inspired humans have designed across the eons to help ourselves decode the mysteries and meanings of self on earth and in the cosmos – systems like numerology, astrology, the Tarot, the I Ching, the Enneagram, the Aura-Soma system of self-revelation through color, the Seven Rays of the Ageless Wisdoms, the Human Design System that shows us how to move around in the world with the correct strategy and authority for who we are, and a multitude of other ancient and modern esoteric sciences and mystical traditions.
And then there is the Angelic Kabbalah, an interactive, self-revelatory, practical-wisdom aspect of the Kabbalah that was hidden for over 500 years since its suppression by the Spanish Inquisition. Through a series of uncanny coincidences, this remarkable tradition showed up in my life and has not let me go for over 20 years. But it has been especially in the last nearly five years of giving the 72 Angels “voice” through the 360 Daily Wisdoms in the 5-volume Book of Days series that my relationship with them has deepened and reshaped me in ways that have enabled me to receive their deeper mysteries.
In coming to understand the origin and purposes of the 72 Angels of the Tree of Life as “angles” of Divine Light dwelling within and among us, they have shown me who I am, what my purpose is here and that I am never alone because there is always someone here within me. They have shown me the dual nature of the Divine, the composition of Its Light and Its own urges for Self-Knowledge and Expression that are reprised within our humanity. And thus most profoundly, they have enabled me to experience that none of us are “only human,” but Divine-Human beings, carrying within us unique configurations of Divine light-qualities that have rendered each of us into a particular “image and likeness” of the Divine on Earth. And that the collective diversity of humanity and all of Creation is a reflection of the inherent diversity of the Divine Itself. The One within the many, and the many as the One.
In our commingling with these 72 “angles” of Divine light, and our personal Birth Angels, we are invited to experience the Divine not as something higher / better / outside of us that we have to drawn down or into us, but something magical and yet very real inside us that knows and loves who we are. And so we are not asked to “get out of the way” to let what is “higher” come through us, but rather we are invited to become the way – because the higher is already here within us, only waiting for the willingness of all the parts of ourselves to engage so that we might experience and share the fullness of who we truly are.
As those know who work with the Tarot or love the old stories of kings’ courts and jesters or the tricksters of mythology, the fool’s challenge is to spark the truth of people and things without getting beheaded for his audacity! I’m hoping that my protection against the latter, as the 72 Angels have shown me, is to “let the words pass through my heart before they leave my lips.” For the heart is where the Angelic Divine reveals the greaterness of all truths that can only be found in the all-seeing of love. The heart that is in me and you and every "other" in the world is where our samenesses lie in wait to be recognized and shared.
And so, the three foundation courses I am offering through Sep-Oct-Nov, along with the 2019 courses to be announced later, represent me taking the lampshade off my light to be a fool for the Divine. I hope you can join me to learn more about this remarkable tradition and to experience the I AM of the Divine and of yourself through these beautiful angelic lights that attend each of us so truly and lovingly. For in all this, it is not just the self we are seeking, but an authentic way to be of service to others that calls on the best of who we are, the truth of who we are, and the love inside us that longs to offer something meaningful to our fellow beings.
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